Sunday, February 11, 2007

I can't sit on that, I'll break it!!

It is so hard to get my head wrapped around the idea that I am a healthy size now.

The other day a co-worker offered me a folding chair to sit on. It was one of those tiny ones that in the past would have flattened if I had tried to sit on it.

I thought, "Oh GOD! I can’t sit on that, I’ll break it!!!"

And I said just that. "I'm sorry, I think I'll break it."

Then he gave me this look like… what they heck have you been smoking?! I then had to explain my bizarre mental situation. He congratulated me on getting healthy… but I am not all the way healthy yet. I still have all this MENTAL baggage to work through.

I think my physical weight loss is pretty much done. Now it is time to get my mind healthy too!



5 comments: said...

Imagine how confuzzled folks must be to hear you express something like "I'm too big" when they are those who didn't know you "back then"!

That ole' brain of ours...can't live with it, can't live without it!

Anonymous said...

Just looking at that chair scares me, and I've lost 113 pounds! I'm still amazed when I can fit through a door without having to turn sideways. Keep up the fantastic work - both physically and mentally!!!

AGirlWorthLosing said...

Your brain hasn't kept up with your body! I sometimes wonder if I will ever feel thin even if I lose weight. I have always been a fat girl.

AGirlWorthLosing said...

I guess your brain hasn't caught up with your little body!

Sometimes I wonder even when I am thin if I will ever see myself as anything but the fat girl.

Jess said...

I think that I will get there! Mentally and Physically.
It feels weird that I am no longer one of the fat girls... but I don't feel like a "skinny chick" either.

I guess I just feel like I don't fit in yet. :) But like moving to a new school, or starting a new job, I will adjust and get a hang of it in time!