It is so hard to get my head wrapped around the idea that I am a healthy size now.
The other day a co-worker offered me a folding chair to sit on. It was one of those tiny ones that in the past would have flattened if I had tried to sit on it.
I thought, "Oh GOD! I can’t sit on that, I’ll break it!!!"
And I said just that. "I'm sorry, I think I'll break it."
Then he gave me this look like… what they heck have you been smoking?! I then had to explain my bizarre mental situation. He congratulated me on getting healthy… but I am not all the way healthy yet. I still have all this MENTAL baggage to work through.
I think my physical weight loss is pretty much done. Now it is time to get my mind healthy too!