Thursday, February 22, 2007

My "Skinny Jeans" are now my "Fat Pants"

The tight sexy jeans I used to squeeze myself into for a hot night out on the town are now the pants I wear when my period puff strikes. It is exciting! I am trying to focus on HOW COOL it is that the jeans I nearly had to lay down to zip up are now my "fat pants..." But it is so hard to do when my weight has spiked up so high...

With my busted bootie, I have not been working out as much this month, and with Valentine's Day, my birthday and my period all in a row... My weight was up to 150.25 this morning!!!

Aaron was such and angel when he reminded me that it is nothing to freak out over. It is just temporary from the recent restaurant trips, my monthly period puff, and lots of chocolate. ;) Soon I will be back into the mid to lower 140's again.

Since most of my workouts are on hold until my butt is better, I have been working on the mental aspects of my weight loss. Lately I have been trying to find my "triggers."

Triggers are something that makes you start doing bad things. A great example of this is smoking.

When a person quits smoking, she'll do fine or a week or so, then she goes out to a bar. At the bar it seems to be EVERYONE is smoking, and it doesn't "feel right" to drink without a cigarette. Next thing you know she's bumming a cigarette from the guy next to her... then buying her own pack...

So I am looking for what triggers me to eat poorly. Unlike smoking, you can't quit EATING cold turkey. (Mmm Turkey) Right now I am teaching myself to eat at a table with a plate and utensils. This sounds silly, but all too often I eat while checking my e-mail, playing online, or watching TV. I know that these are distractions and effect my ability to detect when I am full or not, but I still do it! So I am retraining myself to take time to nourish myself in a quite proper setting. :)

In fact, I think I am going to have supper now! :-D



Thursday, February 15, 2007

Happy Birthday to ME! :-D

Today is my 29th Birthday! :-D

People keep asking me if this is my "Last Birthday." God I hope not!

I am not going to do any "29 and holding stuff."

I'm looking forward to what I can accomplish before I reach 30. :)

We'll just have to wait and see what this year brings. :-)



Sunday, February 11, 2007

I can't sit on that, I'll break it!!

It is so hard to get my head wrapped around the idea that I am a healthy size now.

The other day a co-worker offered me a folding chair to sit on. It was one of those tiny ones that in the past would have flattened if I had tried to sit on it.

I thought, "Oh GOD! I can’t sit on that, I’ll break it!!!"

And I said just that. "I'm sorry, I think I'll break it."

Then he gave me this look like… what they heck have you been smoking?! I then had to explain my bizarre mental situation. He congratulated me on getting healthy… but I am not all the way healthy yet. I still have all this MENTAL baggage to work through.

I think my physical weight loss is pretty much done. Now it is time to get my mind healthy too!



Sunday, February 4, 2007


I finished the FAQ! You can navigate to it via the "Jess Link!" on the
left, or by clicking here!