Saturday, May 30, 2009

Two weeks vacation!

Right now I am in the middle of a two week vacation, and it feels wonderful. :)

I used to get so paranoid about travel because restaurant meals are so caloric.

But this time we booked a hotel with a mini fridge and a microwave in room, so I have been able to eat healthy most meals of the day. :)

We plan to go to little Tokyo today. We'll most likely have sushi for lunch.

I really hope to visit Japan itself someday.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Sudden Intense Craving

Today I was struck by a craving for a McDonald’s Cheeseburger. Instantly my mind vividly imagined the smooth warm bun, the minced onions, pickles, and ketchup in the warm melty plastic cheese. I could smell it, and feel it, and taste it...

This really shocked me because I haven’t had a Mc Donald’s cheeseburger in over 10 years!

This only lasted a few seconds and now I feel really uncomfortable about the experience.

I don’t know what triggered such a lurid memory but its intensity was disturbing....

I'll have to look into that!

I woke up early this morning and did my Yoga DVD!

For breakfast I had and egg white cooked with olive oil on a piece of toast.

I had a mid-morning snack of some light vanilla yogurt.

Lunch was a Lean Cuisine Flatbread sandwich.

Late Afternoon I had another Lean Cuisine Flatbread sandwich (different flavor).

890 calories so far today.

I also took a walk around "the block" after lunch (about a mile).

Monday, May 11, 2009

Mean and Shallow

Sorry I have not posted in a while, but I have been crazy busy trying to get my costumes ready for the Anime Central (ACen) 2009 convention in Rosemont, IL.

I debuted my cosplay of The Diva Plavalaguna from the movie The Fifth Element on Friday, May 8th 2009 to rave reviews!

Jess as The Diva Plavalaguna - "The stones are in me."

I put about 5 months of work into the costume. (Click here for more details and pictures.)

It took about 2 hours to get into it, with all the blending and painting to get myself the correct shade of blue. I’d like to give a big thanks to Aaron for all his zipping and tucking skills!

I think most people who saw my costume were very impressed by it... but sadly there was tiny group who were unimpressed by the person wearing it.

Behind my back I heard a young guy comment to his friends:

“Wow. That’s a great costume. Too bad she’s fat.”

Then later on the internet I read a comment saying: “she needed Jenny Craig.”

I got hundred of complements on my costume, but these two personal criticisms stick out the most.

I am not sure if I can express what it is like to have lost - and KEPT off - over 100 pounds and still be called fat by strangers....

Seriously, when did people become so rude? Why do they think it is okay to say/post those kinds of things?

I worked so hard for the body I have now, but I guess I didn't meet their "air-brushed playboy model ideal."

Not to be all "we-walked-up-hill-both-ways-to-school-in-the-snow" but there used to be these things called "manners." Where you would open doors for others, and if you didn't have anything nice to say, you wouldn't say anything at all.

It doesn’t “make you cool” to make fun of someone’s appearance -you look shallow, superficial, chauvinistic, ignorant, and petty.