Monday, September 4, 2006

"Backseat Dieting"

I was 144.00 this morning! That's half a pound less than what I was on Friday. :) I made it through a 3-day Weekend and a family gathering successfully!

It was the FIRST time in 6 years of marriage that I finally got to meet members of my husband's family other than his parents and siblings. It was so exciting! There was nearly 20 of us at the party. We played, talked, and took a rides through the woods on their land. They also picked up 5 or 6 different flavors of coffeecake for the special occasion. I tried a small slice of the chocolate chip flavor, then came back to try a slice of the strawberry cheesecake flavor.

When I got the cake someone commented that they've been reading my blog, and how I've recently gained weight. They then suggested I have an apple "or would I just take the cake and confess my sins on my blog again?"

I felt like I had been slapped in the face. These past few weeks have been really rough for me, and the last thing I need is a "backseat dieter" needling me with guilt about it. I don't think they realized how harsh those comments sound to a person who's struggled with her weight. For those of you that don't know "fat-ese" this is what I heard: "I read your blog. You're getting fat. Fatties like you shouldn't be eating cake."

I wouldn't have taken the cake if it wasn't within my calorie limits. I have been losing weight, and getting healthy for over 4 years now. I think I know what works for me! ;) I've never stopped eating sweets, so don't be surprised if you see me eating cake. I eat cake. I eat pie. I eat ice cream. I eat whatever I want, and I'm still successful! I don't need criticism on what I eat, especially at a party.

I ate 2020 calories today. (Maintenance Level) I rode the bike, hard, for 30 minutes this morning before breakfast. Later on, I did another 20 minutes as a warm-up for weight lifting & sit-ups. I think tomorrow will be a Rest Day! ;)




Heather ( said...

Wow, that's pretty rough Jessica. I fully understand though (having lost 95lbs so far myself). The other day at work I dared nibble on a piece of dark chocolate, and it was turned into a spectacle. Being a vegetarian I'm used to people analyzing my every bite, but it's so annoying, not to mention rude.

Way to go at getting off the sweeteners by the way, you rock!

Lynn / vigilant20 said...

Can I slap her for you? When's she's accomplished something like you have she can say something. And I'm sure she didn't eat anything at all at the party *insert much eye rolling here*

Yesterday at our picnic some nasty little under weight girl was talking about how fat she was to me and my mom. Don't people understand how offensive that is when you are LITERALLY twice their size?

Anonymous said...

Just out of curiosity: who was the horrendous offender? Or is that prying too much to ask?

Anyhow, keep up the awesome work. GAMBARE!!!

-Lil Sister Rachel

LC in Sunny So Cal said...

WOW...that's amazingly rude and insensitive! If this were someone who mattered to me in the least, I'd take this person aside and let them know how hurtful the comment was and that perhaps if they'd read more of your blog, they'd learn how difficult it is to have a healthy life.

I'm sorry you had to undergo that.

Anonymous said...

I really agreed with your post. The person in question really has no idea about successful 'dieting'. It's not about starvation or denial of the foods you love. It's about enjoying your favourite foods in moderation along with a healthy diet. You have been very sucessfully losing weight for a long time now so you obviously have a successful formula worked out for yourself. Enjoy your cake! You aren't eating it all the time so on those occasions when you do allow yourself it, enjoy it to the full and don't let insensitive comments ruin it.
P.S Your anniversary picture was lovely. You looked fab! I'm so jealous of your slim calves.

pastgirl said...

You just have to wonder what was going through that person's mind when they made that comment....

Anyhow, good for you for eating the cake you wanted and not letting the nasty comment lead to unwanted cake eating (I've gone down that road before...)

Jess said...

Thank you all for your comments! :) It makes me feel good knowing that so many of you understand what it's like!! :)

I am sure the party-go'er thought they were just looking out for my health, and had no idea how those words would hurt me. (I hope...)

tabatha said...

sheesh, when you are trying to eat healthy for a lifetime it would be virtually impossible to avoid all the good things completely!!
you are doing great!!